i have been so volatile of late.

i hate it. i hate it when i lose that veneer of indifference. when i show the slightest bit of emotion (other than amusement). it makes me feel so vulnerable.

the worst part is feeling guilty for lashing out at whoever's unlucky enough to suffer the brunt of it.

still fucking grumpy.

You know what I love most about us? I love how comfortable we are with each other. I love how we endlessly make fun of each other, but never take the teasing to heart. I absolutely adore how when I turn away from you when we’re fighting, you try to stay mad, then run after me. I love the look in your eyes when we kiss or how you stay up to watch me sleep. I love how I can call you anytime when I need someone and somehow you never cease to make me laugh. I love how you need me as much as i need you. And most of all, I love how you love me.

to live in the moment

it's been awhile, but recently i realized that i miss having a blog. somewhere i can spew all of my verbal vomit again

looking at my last entry (dated Jan 09)-

it's only been ten months, but how things have changed. summer was Amazing.. in fact, summer was the main catalyst

I have changed. Never thought I could cry so much, or EMOTE so much. Damn right, I am becoming a regular GIRL. Jon Young, if you are reading this, you are in for a rude shock when you finally come back from Australia. Miss Independent I am no more. For once in my life I chose to let someone in, decided to go it all purely based on blind faith and an open mind. I made an irrational choice, let my heart choose instead of my head

I might be new to this relationship-thing where someone cares about me that much and I him. Everyday I am still learning how to show that I do.. Like I said, it's a whole new ball game........ Hell of a ride!!!

after 10 months of blog-hiatus, unfortunately, school is still the same Hellhole. Talk about life's constants

p/s HI MELISSA. love gazillionjabillion from right here.