bawled my eyes out at dinner with the boys last night, scared them shitless.. sorry boys. it's been too much to handle, not knowing what he wants not knowing where all of this is going, coupled with school shit, expectations to meet, lack of drive.. 

time to take myself seriously

love my ltb group, i find it amazing how a group of vastly different people [apart from leonard and i, we agreed that we're male and female versions of each other] can gel so well.. chemistry's a funny thing. i've only known them from since school started, yet i feel so amazingly comfortable with them. truly blessed to get them as my ltb group. lucky got leonard!